change.

its hard to believe, that four years ago, i had just started getting involved with the student ministry. life was so different then. easy.

i had just obtained a group of high school girls (the best ever!) to pour into. i had just gotten back from my first trip to Asia. i had a different friend group, that was surface level, most of the time. it was just easy. nothing hard about life.

times have changed. i have a different friend group, that sends me way deep into my relationship with Christ. although i do still have the same group of high school girls, that ends in a few months when they scatter to different colleges across the state and country. i am not going to Asia this summer, which i'm learning slowly why God chose that for me.

times change. people change. God never changes.

Do not be deceived, my dear brothers and sisters. Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of Heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

James 1:16-17

sometimes i get so caught up in change. i get sucked into its unknown features. i constantly grasp for control of my life, that is seemingly losing control. but my goodness! my Lord does not change. His hands are big enough to pick me up when i fall and can't pull myself up. His arms are big enough to comfort me when when my heart is shattered. He is powerful, and mighty, and graceful, and so many other things that i don't even have enough space to fill with the words.

i pray that the words from Brooke Fraser's song ring true in my life.

when the world is falling out, from under me, i'll be found in You, still standing. every fear and accusation under my feet, when time and space are through, i'll be found in you.

i want to be found in the Lord. no where else. surrender isn't giving up. surrender is acknowledging that God had control all along and releasing your hand from it. my God does not change. He loves endlessly. change is good because He is good.

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38